When do you never go back?

So here lately I have been talking to my ex more and more and Im thinking soon we may have the what went wrong and should we try again talk. Then only thing is when do you never go back? Im going through that period when you think should I even allow that talk to happen. Or should I just say no now, I know when he broke up with me through an email then and there I said I was never going to go back. Now though going through our relationship I feel that sting of what if. What if I go back and things work out this time. What if they don’t what if he didn’t really work out his fear of commitment and he runs again. Do I really wanna go through the heartache all over again? Is he really worth the risk of pain. Then I think am I really so different from him. Am I the one who is running now? I guess no matter how many times I mull over the questions in my head I will never be fully satisfied. I will never really be not scared or even ready for the risk. But isn’t that what being in a relationship is risk and without the risk is it really even worth it. Someone told me once follow your heart but is that what any of us should really do. So many follow there heart and never get any were but on the 2:10 to hell( yes that was a play on the movie 2:10 to Yuma). I guess we all just have to do whatever we think is right and see what happens. After all if we never made mistakes we would never learn how to better ourselves. So I guess that’s what I will have to do. Just thought I write this on my blog for ya’all to read. Who knows maybe it will help someone else cause I can’t be the only one who over thinks everything!

What A Wonderful Life!!

So I don’t know what it is but these last few weeks have been horrible! I don’t know if it’s because of planet alignment or just life in and of its self, but I have wanted to be Rose and jump off the Titanic. Wow that was a nerdy way to say I wanted to die. Anyway these have been weeks for the record books. So far I have almost been in a fight with a Pentecostal woman I work with, fractured my hand, fell on my face in the rain, lost my phone, found my phone and then lost it again and much much more. So you see what I have dealt with. Was it only me or has anyone else witnessed or lived this crazy span of crap here lately? I know though that if I have to work another full moon I might have to admit myself into the loony ben. I swear all the freaks come out on a full moon. So take my advice plan ahead lock yourself in your house and hide. So for now I have ranted enough. Till next time.....

Something Everyone Can Relate Too.

This is a song I know everyone can relate to wether its because of a death close to you or even just a bad day month or year. But here it is and the link for the music video will follow.


Creed-One Last Breath.

Please come now I think Im falling Im holding on to all I think is safe.
It seems Ive found the road to nowhere and Im trying to escape.
I yelled back when I heard thunder but im down to one last breath and with it let me say, let me say
Hold me now Im six feet from the edge and I thinkn' maybe six feet ain't so far down.
Im looking down now that its over reflecting on all of my mistakes.
I thought I found the road to somewhere, somewhere in his grace.
I cried out 'Heaven Save Me' but im down to one last breath and with it let me say, let me say.
Hold me now im six feet from the edge and Im thinkn' maybe six feet ain't so far down.
Hold me now im six feet from the edge and Im thinkn' maybe six feet ain't so far down.
Im so far down.
Sad eyes follow me but i still believe there's something left for me so please come stay with me.
'Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me, For you and me.
For You and Me.
Hold me now im six feet from the edge and Im thinkn' maybe six feet ain't so far down.
Hold me now Im six feet from the edge and Im thinkn'
Hold me now Im six feet from the edge and Im thinkn' maybe six feet ain't so far down.
Hold me now im six feet from the edge and Im thinkn' maybe six feet ain't so far down
Please come now I think im fallling holding on to what I think is safe.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qnkuBUAwfe0